An email to a nondual coaching client:

Dear -----

I realized that when you were expressing your longing for a direct experience of the unconditioned ground of your being, I did not have time to fully respond to you.

I spoke to you about gentleness, and just resting here, in this moment, without looking for a better or bigger experience. Without worrying about whether or not you are ‘on track’ or not, letting go of the need to know that.

I have a very strong sense these days of the infinite spaciousness of being, and how we are permeated in each moment by this, and at the same time, turning away from it, towards what we can know, or hold onto, or feel comfortable with. That’s why I appreciate so much the nondual principle of ‘nowhere to land.’ And I sometimes feel that the restlessness and anxiety you struggle with is just the conditioned nature of the mind, still hoping to find some solid ground to rest on. And there is no ground like that. We just have to relax into the spaciousness, into not knowing, over and over, as much as we can, and be grateful even for small moments of wide-openness.

I feel there is something inherently nourishing and important about learning to do this, and at the very same time, I want to say that I completely honor your longing for the Divine, for that which is unspeakable, and ungraspable. I honor every single step of your journey, I respect deeply everything that is emerging in your being at this time, including the depth of the longing. I don’t want to brush any of it aside. Your awakening to the nondual, to the Divine, is utterly unique, and it will unfold it it’s own way, not like mine, not like Jeff Foster’s, not like Peter Fenner’s, just like yours.

Every single bit of your journey has value, an unconditioned value, not to be measured by you or by me.

That spaciousness, that devotion, that sense of awe and gratitude is who you are, right now, and I know it.

And I’m happy to know it, without knowing how I know this, or who knows it!

Thank you

love
Shayla